Seoul Sister

Stole this from my friends FB….I love it! And yes I think I was drunk for 5 straight years~~~

I’m not use to mushy gushy texts but I think I can get used to it„, ^^

This is how i feel right now…. Well!!! I did it! I finally told coworker about my tattoo(s)….were at noksapyeong station waiting for the train when we see this guy with a huge tat on his calf and coworker kept going on and on about it saying how he thinks that’s so cool and how he wants one but if he ever did get one how his mom would kick him out of the house! ㅡ.ㅡ um I decided to hold my tongue but he literally wouldn’t shut up about it so I just blurted it out “I have a tattoo (deep breath)” he looks at me and with the biggest grin says where?? Really!? Show me! Ha I tell him no, and if the chance arrives he’d be able to see it anyways~ first I told him about the one on my foot and that I had another where you couldn’t see even if I was wearing a bathing suit~ I asked him how he felt about it, he said he was totally fine with it and that he wants to get one himself! Ha I won’t encourage him but I told him I found it hot when guys have tattoos on their sides near the ribs~~yum! so the day went on and and we were having a really nice/expensive/fancy dinner at an Italian restaurant when the tattoo thing comes up again, he wants me to show him my foot and I said no~then he asked about my other one and I decided to be completely honest and said you know I have a total of three right? Big stunned look~he says no! Ha but he SEEMS to be fine with it~only time will tell. He said something weird while getting off the train, first i said “in time youd be able to see my tattoos don’t worry”~and he goes, “I may not have that opportunity”? What do you have a death sentence? Coworker really doesnt think about sex and it’s so weird to me, I mean I’m sure he thinks about it but I wonder if he thinks about having it with me….when we talk about marriage and stuff (not us getting married but just marriage) sometimes he’ll say “if we get married…..” and I don’t know how I feel about it quite yet~it’s weird being in a grown up relationship~I mean I guess this isn’t a relationship yet, whatever it is I want it to keep going the way it is, I think I like it ^^

(Source: apenas-viva-um-sonho)

Just bought the cuuuuuutest shoes yesterday! I am in love! the only problem is it shoes my tattoo~ ha I’m being overly self-conscious about my tattoo, I know I am, It shouldn’t define me it shouldn’t even be a question or concern so why am I being like this? because of 한국문화 (Korean Culture) If I was a real Korean I wouldn’t have desecrated my body the way that I have ㅡ.ㅡ I always act like I don’t care and I’m above any bullshit that people throw my way but I care, not a lot, but I care, I’ve always been scared that people won’t like me for some absurd minuscule reason and it may seem like a huge waste of my time to care about what others think about me but it’s not necessarily that, its the fact that someone I could love won’t love me in return because of vanity, I know, I know, who wants to be with someone that doesn’t love you for you anyways, but that’s what hurts, rejection~ I don’t care if I’m rejected because of my personality or anything but for some odd reason I seem to care a lot if I am rejected on my appearances. When I was younger I was teased endlessly by my friends (MY FRIENDS) about how my eyes were squinty or my head was too round, etc etc, no boobs no butt, the list goes on~now I’m older and I’ve been at the butt end of all the jokes before, but lately people seem to tell me how beautiful and attractive I am, the more they tell me this more I’m being insecure and self-aware, it’s weird, I’d rather be the ugly duckling than a swan, I’m not worthy of a swan, isn’t it so weird to think that way of yourself? I always get so taken aback when I pick a guy and decide I like them, that they decide to like me in return, literally blows my mind and makes me giddy! I need to lower my standards on the looks front too, I always pick the sexy, tall, well dressed guys, but realize that those guys have nothing going for them~they’re dumb as dirt but cute as a button, I don’t want to be someone’s sugar momma I want someone to be my sugar daddy! ha (not really) so I’m taking tall out of the equation, I’ll settle for sexy and well dressed? cmon! I can have two out of three~I’m well worth it, but I have so many heels!! ugh, I’m rambling…..

Coworker- his texts are coming earlier and earlier and he’s calling more frequently and frequenter (<~I can’t believe that’s a word) I’m just nervous it’s not going to end well, whenever we hold hands I get this light bodied feeling, I guess butterflies? but they’re not in my stomach they’re wherever he touches me, I wish he wasn’t so soft spoken I want him to be a bit more manly and not tell me things like he just put a face pack on before going to bed because he thought he was going to meet my dad the next night?!? ㅇ.ㅇ My dad is friends with my boss, and my boss invited him to dinner last night with all of the members of our team, so I invited coworker since he was going to be a member of our team, dinner ended up getting canceled because my boss went out of town and coworker was bummed. I did tell coworker that I hadn’t told my dad about him and that I had only told my mom, to my surprise he said the same thing, he said it’s been hard trying to tell his dad about me, but he’s openly told his mom, I wonder what he tells his mom about me and I wonder why it’s hard for him to tell his pop pop~ he wants us to slowly tell our dads about each other which I think is weird, it’s not like we’re getting married, yet….5 more days until he starts working with me in the office…5 more days until I have start caring about what I wear to work…5 more days……5 more days…..

(Source: leahhkaye, via dreamingofkorea)

textsfrombennett:

Does this make Bennett racist?

hahahahahahahahahahahaha this is too funny!

This is a picture of me and Coworker at Incheon we went to what seemed like a really big yard sale, they have it 3 times a year April, May, and June. Coworker says I should participate in June, pay ₩10,000 won for a table and sell all the stuff I don’t wear! It’s a great idea because I have A TON of stuff I could sell, heck I could use 2 or 3 tables! Coworkers friends were already there and they’re the ones that took this picture of us, we didnt even know they were taking the picture~I like coworker thus far, but I guess I have too considering our situation~he starts working with us in less than a week and needless to say I am freaking out! Like freaking the fuck out! What if things go bad, what it I get bored, what if he does, what if I think he’s lame, what if he hates that I have tattoos, ugggggh I hate the ugly what if questions~he should like me for me right? I need to stop dating for marriage, my hair is falling out from all the stress. Squirrel pulled a psycho on me this weekend~I talked to him waste face Friday night we talked he said go home, I said no, my office friend was calling me so I told him I’d have to put him on hold, he hung up, called me back 45mins later, I was having fun so I didn’t answer, called me back 10 times, first annoyance. Next day I had a date with coworker and it went on all day~so I didn’t have my phone on, when I finally got home around midnight I looked at my phone squirrel called me 12 times and left a weird kakao message saying, “니몬데 진짜 나랑 장난치나 연락안하려고 하는거면 말이라도 하고 연락 끊어라 치사하게 이러지 말고 사람 답답해 죽을것 같으니까” translation “who do you think you are? Are you playing with me? If you don’t want to talk to me then then say you don’t want to talk to me and end it, your being mean/cowardly don’t be this way, I’m freaking out and it feels like I’m dying…” (roughly translated) ok…c’mon dude it hasn’t even been 24 hours since I talked to you last, I mean really? Red flag is it not? Talk about clingy!!!! Ugh I need to think this one out~~~help!